I know, I know, I just don't know your situation. I don't understand your struggle. I don't know what you have to go through everyday. But I don't believe you're falling apart. In fact, I think you're much stronger than you think, otherwise you would have given up long ago.
Think about it. Why are you still going through your problems? Why do you put up with what life throws at you everyday? Why not just end it all and be done with everything? Well, it's because you're strong enough to handle your problems.
This is what I believe: everybody only goes through a battle that he or she has been equipped to fight in. A police officer is not equipped to fight fires, so he won't be put in that situation. A paramedic is not equipped to arrest criminals, so she won't be in that situation. We are all in situations that we have been equipped to fight in, otherwise we would have been dead long ago.
When you think about your struggles, think about how you've handled them so far. Think about what improvements you see in your character. Think about where you were and where you are NOW. How long have you struggled with your problems?You'd see that you are stronger than you think because the battle was made specifically for you.
No, we don't want to think about being made to lose a loved one, or be placed in financial hardship, or to have family problems. And no, we don't want to think that someone in heaven is purposefully ruining our lives simply to "make us better."
But remember that there is no soul on earth who has a completely peaceful life. Every person would go through his moments of fire: if not now, then sometime in the future.
But your time is coming (or is already here), my time is coming (heck, I already had my share of struggles!), everybody's time is coming. And the battle we would fight would be suited just for us.
So whatever battle you're fighting, you are strong enough to fight it. Don't talk yourself into thinking you're weak. If you were truly weak, you wouldn't even fight this battle in the first place. But you decided to stay and fight -- and that, my friend, shows a true warrior.
Don't worry, the battle is almost over. Just keep swinging that sword. You'll get your victory. You were designed to fight this battle, and you were also designed to win it.